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Post by Emma on Jun 18, 2008 11:03:01 GMT 1
Leave me alone! I'm seriously struggling to cope with all this. I don't want to go back to hospital but I see it on the cards again. Why can't I just be well? Why can't I be normal. Have normal friends and a normal life.
All my friends are doing their exams and going on to university or starting new lives while I'm stuck here. I'm such a failure.
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Post by Emma on Jun 20, 2008 8:46:47 GMT 1
I can't believe I'm back in hospital! I can't believe it! I'm such a failure. I was so happy to finally be home, only to have that snatched away again. I hate it here. I hate all the time I have to think and be alone with the voices.
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Post by Emma on Jul 2, 2008 15:52:25 GMT 1
Get out of my head! It's so crowded. She's telling me one thing, he's telling me another. I've just realised what a pregnant dog I've been but don't care because I can't deal with the situation anymore.
*She's* changed and I don't like the new personality. She's fake and attention seeking. She's self obsessed and does my head in. Everything has to be bigger and better with her. She makes me feel pathetic and insecure. Thats not right! Thats not meant to happen!
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Post by Emma on Jul 8, 2008 9:50:06 GMT 1
I can't do this. I'm feeling suicidal properly for the first time in ages. Everything seems to come to a dead end. I feel so painfully lonely and anxious. I'm doing as the voices say but I don't feel any better for it.
I thought you were going to make me beautiful! I thought you were going to make me pure! All I feel is misery and pain.
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Post by Emma on Jul 16, 2008 17:55:47 GMT 1
You fat ugly pregnant dog. Take your blade, slice the poison out. No one is going to save you. You're FAT EMMA FAT!!!!! Don't listen to her Emma, I'll keep you safe. I love you believe me! You're healthy.
I can't do this anymore. I'm still hearing voices but if I tell the hospital they'll keep me in. Why can't you go Fiona. I want to cut your evil out! I want to cut YOU out.
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Post by Emma on Aug 4, 2008 19:31:17 GMT 1
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE I KNOW IM FAT. I KNOW IM UGLY. I DON'T NEED YOU GOING ON AND ON AND ON !!!
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Post by Emma on Aug 5, 2008 15:44:21 GMT 1
I'm fed up of feeling ugly I'm going to watch what I eat! exercise! bother to do my hair and make up By the time i get back, they won't recognise me!
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Post by Emma on Oct 5, 2008 18:32:03 GMT 1
Why do I love you both? You don't love me. Out of sight, out of mind. But YOU'RE always on MY mind! You're in my dreams. ARGH
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